Teaching my self something new...

My new year resolution this year is to teach my self something new at least once a month.

First up  Tunisian Crochet. A few of my friends have requested sweaters from me. This is my first one I made based off measurements I asked for. My friends dog Buddy is my guinea pig. I can't wait to see if it fits him. It was fun to make with little cussing LOL.

Next up as I was browsing ideas for baby blankets I came across entrelac crochet and fell in love.

Above is my practice swatch to see if i liked the technique or not. I do like it even if the design is basically one sided.

And some other things i've made trying to use up my yarn stash....

My beading has taken a back seat and my crochet is my addiction. I've also made mickey and minnie mouse hats for friends :) I think i may have to get one of those Styrofoam heads for models LOL.

Bling for meeeeee!

So I turned 30 yesterday...eeeeep! J/k the world didn't end so it's all good right? So because of my Birthday I felt the need to buy myself some bling for the occasion. Normally I pick up some fake sparkles on clearance, but this year I found some real sparkles on clearance! Score!!!

Above is a pic of it. It has to be sized since I have oh so huge size 8.5 fingers. I guess stores do not carry anything but a size 7. Which is annoying because I personally know many people who do not wear a 7 except my mom. I had ordered a ring for her and the place I ordered it from only carried size 6.50 everything else had to be sized up. Heck even the sales lady couldn't fit it on her finger! Anywho...in 2 weeks I wear it and show it off :) Sure the diamonds are so darn small you don't know what they are, but hell I bought them and they are my first diamonds so it's ok. It sure does sparkle nice and that is all that matters!

Other then that I went in and had a mani and had a nice lunch, dinner and shopping excursion.

Here's hoping to a better 2013. 2012 sucked!

Rest Easy My Love....

For the last week I have been trying to come up with the words to say good bye to my girl...Really there are no words for something like this....


Last week Athena was getting increasingly worse. She had more bad days then good and her coughing was more persistent. And when she looked at me I just knew it was her last week. She had lost a lot of weight to the point where i could see every back bone she had and her ribs and she just looked tired.

I met up with an online friend who took our pictures and I will treasure them forever...

Ack...even now the tears are welling up.I picked her ashes up on Saturday. I wasn't sure if I should get them back, but I think I just needed too..

Fair well to the best Frisbee dog

My super hero who was always around when I needed you!

To the best Model there was....

Mommie loves you and will forever miss you by my side. Give Granma and all the other family we've lost lots of loves and comfort.

Ok time to go cry again....*sigh*

My Amazing Friends...

Having friends in your life is always a must, but having amazing friends in your life is really, in my opinion, a blessing...

Shortly after Athena was diagnosed a group of my friends got together and bought me this nose print necklace....It's not any nose print it's Athena's *tears* Rockmyworld on etsy is amazing!

And then another friend from the same group had a lady she knows paint my sweet girl! It looks even more amazing in person!

Ack she did such a great job and even put a frisbee in the picture for her! Here is the original pic i had sent to her for inspiration. This is the lady who did the painting. Her work is amazing http://www.jerieartz-artzart.blogspot.com/

I also had a friend do her paw prints for me too. Now I can remember my sweet girl forever...Now if only I can somehow cast her ears? LOL

I have some amazing friends!

Craft Time

My job has been a little pretty much a pain in my ass stressful as of late. So I thought to get into the holidays and to save my self money I would make everyone's gifts this year. I'm not sure if it really is saving me money per say since I keep buying yarn, but I am enjoying the things I'm making AND I even was paid for 2 items I made on request!


First up...baby booties with matching hat.A friends niece is having a baby and asked me to make her some booties and hat.

A Sheepskin dog bed with fleece back to it for easy cleaning. This was for my friends little bichon who doesn't handle the cold well anymore. He peacefully sleeps his days away now with no shivering! The fur is actually a dark brown, but the lights in my office with the crappy phone camera made it look weird.

A beanie to keep my friends grandson warm through his battle with testicular cancer at age 20.

Hat and Scarf- A gift to my friends son who LOVES hats and scarfs. He told his momma the other day "Athena doesn't get to wear it anymore!" LOL. Athena modeling the projects.

And now I am working on a blanket for my sister who has ovarian cancer :( I should finish it soon. Going on a road trip with the dogs to WA to see my aunt for Thanksgiving next week so I will have lots of down time to get it done! I was also comissioned to make 2 more sets of booties! So I will be working on those as well before January. PLUS the hats I have in mind for the rest of the family. Good thing I crochet fast!

OH and Gifts for my aunts newfies...They will get drool bibs for xmas. I'll be working on a design when I am there next week then my mom will embroider some sayings on it like "Drool is sexy." Hoffa is not a huge drooler, but dozer is always soggy haha.

As you can see Drool City!

I hate being an Adult

Can I just run away to a time where I did not have to make hard decisions? Pretty please?

Athena was really restless last night and is starting to have a hard time breathing. At one point she was laying on my pillows trying to get as close to be as she could. Generally that means she is not feeling good. Although she is eating and seems to have energy she gets winded very easy and almost whines when you touch her tummy. She gets bloated very easy now after she eats. I swear I hate making a decision, but how long do you let a pet suffer? she will never show she is in pain and that is the hard part. She shows me discomfort by being more clingy then usual and that is about it. She has been very clingy to me more so then usual.


She has been doing decent up until now. I do have her on prednisone once a day. For the first week she was on it the medication did take down her lymphnodes to  normal size. However that lasted only a week before they started getting bigger again. Right now the steroids are basically keeping her eating. My mom commented last night about how tired she looks. :(


I'm sitting here feeling like a horrible mom for even thinking of putting her down. Does she have energy to run around the yard? Yes, but a short trip to the pet food store had her very winded.....Does she eat? It really depends on the day if she eats well or not. What concerns me the most is her breathing. She takes shallow breaths and sounds like she has bronchitis. That wheezing forceful sounding breaths. 


Do I regret not doing chemo? Heck no. She has lasted well past any doc told me she would! I was told 6 weeks without treatment. Here it is close to 23 weeks after i found the nodes swollen and she is still here. And really i only started the prednisone bout 4 weeks ago.

Stupid cancer...making me make a hard decision in life...

Supplements

I never thought figuring out supplements would be a chore with Athena. She always has had a iron stomach. So I thought adding Mushrooms to her diet wouldn't be such a big deal. I did a fair amount of research on mushroom supplements for dogs with cancer and it looked like a excellent idea. Turns out she HATES the supplements from the vet and they really do not agree with her. To the point where she was not eating her meals because of them.

So after a long phone convo with her new vet, who i love btw, we decided to take her off the mushrooms and go back to the beginning. So back to her normal food with wet and her immune support powered supplement from the vet. She tolerates the immune support very good and the vet said this supplement is very important for Athena and her immune system.

 I also wanted to put her on a anti inflammatory for her joints and to hopefully help any inflammation to the nodes because of her cancer.  So my vet recommended Boswellia. So off to the health food store in my city. They had a Boswellia and turmeric blend capsule. My vet had told me that turmeric would be excellent for cancer. So the capsule was hitting two birds with one stone so to speak. And let me tell you this stuff is amazing! She is doing wonderful and even demanded we play Frisbee every day this week despite the heat! I started her on them sat night and I really think they are helping her a lot.

Then we have the Yunnan baiyao and arnica for her random bruising. The bruising is so odd and the vet has no idea why she is bruising other then maybe she is knocking the swollen glands around while playing and it pops something in there.

I think after this next pay day I will order a different type of mushroom supplement. There are powder kinds and a liquid kind. I'm debating on which one to get. The powder is 3/4tsp once a day and the liquid is a ton of drops 2x a day. I'm no so sure drops are a good idea in the wee hours of the morning when I make her breakfast. I would try the mushrooms the vet gave me again but i worry about her upset tummy and they are 4 big chewable pills a day and she won't eat them with out crushing them up very small and mixing with something very smelly.

She is slowing down a bit. When I come home at lunch she is unimpressed and wants to go back to bed and sometimes she just doesn't want her snacks. But so far she is still eating all her meals, still wants her chews and squeaks her chews and wants her walks and play time. So really I'm happy she is doing good! My previous vets scared me to the point that I truly thought she would be gone by now. 8 weeks and counting since I noticed her swollen glands and she is still doing amazing! Take that vet who thought holistic care was a waste of money and would kill my dog.

Each meal she gets:

EVO grain free
Grain free wet to mix the supplements up and add more moisture to her diet. sometimes i mix in some freeze dried raw or frozen raw.
Omega 3 oil/salmon oil with low omega 6 (omega 6 bad for cancer)
Standard Process: Immune Support 3/4tsp
Boswellia/turmeric capsule
Yunnan Bai Yao and Arnica as needed for bruising.

Then her snacks are homemade cookies with cottage cheese and her bullies or tooth chews.