Early Morning is not my friend!

So as always my goal for this year is to get in shape and loose weight. My off and on working out proved not to be good for loosing weight go figure. So I sat down and planned out weekly workout on excel and even plan on using my new phone app to track how far i go and record that too. I also had this wild idea that early morning workouts would be a great idea.....

My alarm went off at 5am. I got up put the dog out and fed her. And for the life of me i could NOT keep my eyes open. So back to bed i went. I guess my body is determined to be an evening workout person.

So keeping my scheduled workouts the same i will just do them when i get home in the evening which is about 5pm. And maybe gradually set my alarm earlier and earlier so waking up at such an ungodly hour isn't so hard.....

I Can dooooo this!!!!

What do you say?

A very dear friend of mine has been fighting cancer. Until recently i was over the moon optimistic that everything would be ok. I was positive she would keep waking up every day, going to work, laughing and among many more things watch her daughter grow into a beautiful woman.

Then i heard the news no one wants to hear. "The cancer has spread and if this next round of chemo doesnt work you have 6-8 weeks to live." What do you say to that? How do you comfort a woman who has been fighting to survive not only for her self but more importantly her daughter. I try to stay positive for her and i hope she doesn't hear the pain in my voice or in my words when i write or speak to her. What else can i do? If i could magically take the cancer away i would in a heartbeat, but i can't.

Another friend of mine is collecting letters to put them in a book to give to her when she visits this month. I'm faced with a task of writing a letter to her. I say task because it's not something i really want to do. Not because i do not love her, but i'm at a loss as what i want to say. Do i write an encouraging letter that she will beat this no matter what or do i tell her that she has been and will always be a great friend where ever she will be. I don't want her to feel like I'm giving up on her because i am not. However reality is her body is giving up on her. Maybe i'll make my letter a collection of pictures that somehow express how i feel with out having to say the words: you are a wonderful loving woman, mom to many and you will be missed. le sigh